As a librarian I know the power of words. Their ability to change hearts and minds, to move us forward or to divide us, is something that I share with my students every day. Right now, extremists are using violent and divisive language to scare me and hurt my reputation.

The people they incite have called me a pedophile, groomer, and pervert. Their words are gross and false, malicious and dangerous.

They are attacking me because I am defending our community’s right to a great education, to have access to materials that reflect the reality of their world, and that engage them in learning. I am a middle school librarian, a mother, and a lifelong resident of our community. I have been teaching for 22 years and I work closely with my students' parents to keep them safe.

On Wednesday, a judge determined that it is okay for these falsehoods to continue to be spread freely on social media, even if they “hurt my feelings.” But this was never about my feelings. This is about our collective safety and our children’s right to be, and to learn. This is about making it safe for educators to do their jobs, and for children to have truly great educational opportunities. While it is never easy or comfortable to do so, we must continue to stand up to these bullies to ensure that all of our students are safe, respected, and free to learn.

These past few weeks have been the hardest of my life. I am deeply disappointed in the court's decision, and appalled that the court does not recognize the violent power of the words falsely used to intimidate me. However, I am proud of choosing to challenge these bullies, and stand up for the best interests of our community. I am proud that the Livingston Parish Library System chose to do the same by refusing to ban books in our library collection. There is a vocal minority of bullies hurling violent insults. We are all stronger and safer when we join together to speak out against their hate and division.

Thank you to the hundreds of supporters who have stood by me. I have never felt more loved and supported in all of my life. Perhaps most wonderful, so many of my former students reached out to me with words of encouragement, and to tell me how I helped shape their lives for the better. In the end, that is what all educators aspire to do. We give our all to support our students and try to make the world a better place for them. Hearing from my former students lets me know that I have accomplished that in my 22 years as an educator. Inspired by that knowledge, I will continue to do so.

God has a plan for me. I do not yet know what that entails, but I will continue to give this life and this profession my all with dignity. I will take some time to consider my next steps, and will keep you posted. Until then, I send my thanks and all courage to the professionals doing the best they can by every single one of their students, every single day.